My ex-ex — I still have some regard for her, I still do (there's value in expectation, or at least in a loose connection). But this girl is done. Every single point is missing. The word "worthless" — in the literal sense — fits her perfectly. You know, honestly, even a genuinely dim person (someone whom most people, objectively speaking, would call that — or simply someone who isn't particularly smart) would be easier to deal with, or more enjoyable to be around.
She's stepped on too many things she shouldn't have. The baseline quality is deficient to an extreme degree.
(To put it differently, or to add to it: I don't want to deal with that bloodline. My aversion fills me completely at the family unit level. The thought of that lineage touching mine makes me feel sick.)
It hurts. But this is the verbal expression of how she treated me.
Honestly, I hold no expectations or hope for anything anymore, so I sincerely hope she never reads this.
(I'm not holding back much at this point, so I'm writing things that she really shouldn't see — and honestly, my desire for it not to reach her outweighs my desire to say it to her face. There's no value or meaning for me in hurting her further; no reason to expand a negative-sum outcome. If anything, I couldn't even write this with my sensibilities if it were directed at her. If she's going to see it at all, she should just contact me directly. But then again, I'm already so full of biological revulsion that in the end, the best thing would be if she just lives out her life the way I know her to be — unchanged — and it all ends there, quietly.)