The reason I rarely feel jealous is that I've already dismantled most things through reason, knowledge, or experience.
In practice, though, I immediately feel jealousy at the theoretical level.
Sometimes it manifests as desire, sometimes as anger.
And that's also what drives me.
Incidentally, people who don't understand me (which is almost everyone) — who can't — judge me through a stereotyped model of who I am. So when something unexpected happens, something that looks like a black swan to them (though it's probably not that rare objectively — it just appears random from the outside), they end up confused, or arbitrarily lower their estimation of me.