It's not like I think about it constantly.
But I've thought it many times — and I know I absolutely cannot forgive this, must not forgive it.
My head hurts right now for some reason, maybe from not eating enough.
My heart aches, even though none of this is my fault.
It's not that I've been nursing a grudge — it's more that I'm too foolish to hold grudges for long — so this is physiological advice from my inner self: never forget.
I genuinely don't want to hurt anyone. Don't want to stir up unpleasant feelings in them.
I had been preparing for this, though.
Anyway, congratulations.
I feel a bit sorry because this isn't entirely fair.
When I received it, I was genuinely happy, and I want to treasure it, so I will.